Yesterday Today Tomorrow

Today I went in and cancelled my eHarmony account. Hard to believe it’s only been 3 short months and that things have turned out the way they have. Hard to believe that the site actually worked the way it promises. Hard to believe that I really truly am this freakin happy.

Yet, here I am.

Craig and I have been having some serious conversations lately. We’ve been spending about 4 out of the 7 days a week together. He seeks out time to spend with me. He has given me a drawer. He wants me around. A lot. More importantly, I want to be around him. A lot.

Y’all… I really am the happiest I’ve ever been. It’s super weird. Most of the time I don’t really know what to do with myself and all that I am feeling. It’s kinda scary. Like, all those times before when I thought I was happy. I had no freakin clue what happiness really was.

THIS is happiness.

I can’t imagine not having Craig in my life. I like being with him. I like the conversations/discussions/debates we have. I like when we both just sit and read and that we don’t have to constantly entertain each other. I like cuddling with him on the couch while we watch a movie. I like riding bikes with him up and down 1st street. I like sitting on his porch and watching the waves crash on the ocean.

I love how he kisses me so very sweetly and sincerely and so very often. He never misses a moment to kiss me. I’m in the kitchen grabbing a glass of water and he walks by and kisses me. I’m in the bathroom brushing my teeth and he comes over and kisses me. I’m reading a book on the couch and he’s working in the office and randomly he’ll just come out and walk over and give me a kiss and then go back to work.

Last night he came with me to church. As we were walking out he put his hand on my shoulder. He likes to hold on to me and I love that about him. When we’re in the car he reaches over and grabs my hand. When we’re walking on the beach he is holding my hand. When we’re walking from the car to the restaurant he even grabs my hand.

I love it.

He talks a lot about our future. He uses the terms “us” and “our” regularly. He genuinely wants me in his life for better or worse till death do us part and that makes me very happy because I feel the same. I just keep thinking about everything I’ve been through in my life. How I really thought, at times, that I was truly happy but I really didn’t know what happiness really was. We’re very comfortable. We have tough discussions. We talk about the future. We work out our differences. We are a team.

So, this is the big update that’s taken me a while to write. I know that I haven’t posted as much as I had planned. I really was going to document more about the whole eHarmony thing but it really ended up much simpler and wasn’t as drawn out as I expected.

This is a good thing.

I can honestly say that they know what they are doing. It feels a little weird to answer the question of how we met… but in this era, online matchmaking is gaining momentum. I mean, think about it, in the past our communities were much more tight-knit. We had someone in our life that was more than willing to introduce us to someone interesting. We had social circles and much more free-time and different chances to meet people. In addition, most people got married before they began their careers either to their High School or College sweetheart.

Today, we are working more and taking our time to really be sure that we’re making a solid decision that will last a life time. I can’t tell you how many people I know who have been divorced. In America, we have nearly a 50/50 chance that a marriage will end in divorce. Craig and I have talked extensively about how we feel regarding that subject. Both of us have divorced parents. We’ve seen first hand what that means and we want to be sure that the person we marry is the person we spend the rest of our life with. End. Of. Story.

So, we’re definitely taking this relationship seriously and trying our best to lay a solid foundation. I ask that you continue to pray for us. That our relationship is strengthened and that we continue to make our relationship with Christ our number one priority because that is what will sustain us for the long-term.

Thanks so much for following along in this journey and I look forward to sharing the many more adventures that lie ahead. God bless y’all. 🙂